(Originally posted at xanga.com/u32222311aufo in 2006.)
[First post]
okay i know that cari considered my "jumping church to church" behavior not completely proper or best choice. But i just think it's i don't know. Ive only visited Sandra's church twice. and then was a member of the ubf, but that was when i wasn't saved.
and i just want to explore all these other types of church. and experience how they organize their church. cari's opinion is that you gain something from committing to a single church [UBF, of course]. And i can agree. i just want to find the one.
[Second post]
and now my mind's just going off on how i'm really starting to worry about ubf. i been hearing not so bright things about them and developing my own concerns that just makes me begin to question how strong is their foundation in christ?....
i remember what jesus had mention(ed) that even if the faith is as small as a mustard seed....it doesn't matter..it'll do...
but what i am trying to say is....when it's all bright and rosy it's fine and okay....but, what do they do when when they are under attack by the devil [under pressure to recruit and train and abuse sheep]?
if i discuss this w/ cari will she be understanding of my concerns about this church? the body of God are in the churches. not just in UBF but in revolution, in baptist, in morgan's church at irvine....
do i even have a point of concern at all?....i'm young in my faith compared to them...would they see what i'm worried about if i talk....?
i saying i'm concerned about them; just i hesitated to really mention point by point what these concerns are.
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it's just i really do not want it that UBF becomes a church where i have to tell others to be aware of. i don't want that to become them. i made a prayer about them last night...and am planning to write a list of those concerns i have. and why they seem like weaknesses that needs to be dealt with.
and i don't know what else.
i don't want them to be a church where i end up telling ppl to be careful from. and i'm not the only one have concerns...not just me now...not just my friends but also OTHERS. (I won't mention specifically...but really!)
something needs to be said....i just want them to be okay...i want them to be a good church.
[Third post]
Friday, December 22, 2006
i feel like i'm finding my place over here [in CCC, away from UBF]. like i finally can find a place i belong to finally. i lost my place in ubf a long time ago - it won't ever be like it used to. and like the saying goes...why...or can't...or should cry over spilled milk right!
this is the way it has to be now - like it or not. and i need to not grieve over the past anymore [another traumatic exit from UBF]. mostly when i beginning to find my place right now. i wholeheartedly enjoy my new friends in CCC. and i can't ever get enough time just to be with them.
i want to put down their names in here but...nah i'll keep that a secret. (despite i might've spilled their names in here in the past!)
but you get the point =p
